I am a mess I think. 2020 to now has felt like my train ran off the tracks. 2 deaths, a miscarriage, I lost my promotion at work, and I'm still the sole caregiver for my mother. I was just drained and saw a therapist who brought up my incest and rape history. She insisted we work on that and honestly I think it made things worse. I'm anxious all the time now. I switched therapists and I really like my new one but I just can't seem to open up to her. She has been really good at keeping me from going off the edge but I really can't afford therapy anymore and she has already dropped her price considerably for me. I'm terrified of not having that support. I'm hoping I can help myself using these audio sessions. I just want to be able to find my Centre again. I know life has a lot to offer and I used to be excited about each new day. I would like that back. I would also like to stop cutting. That started back with the first therapist after 8 years.