I have health problems which come along with a lot of fear. I have experienced a lot of treatments that in the end made things always worse - so I have the very deep fear whenever I try something it only makes things worse. It's kind of self-sabotage but only related to health. I was told as a two-year-old that I will always have a chronic disease (which turned out to be not true) but it stuck with me that "I am sick".

I have tried the "Healing power of hypnosis". During the session, my exact problems pop up. I can realx deeply but when the moment comes where the white cells clean up the blood like sharks, my mind resists and blocks and goes in the opposite direction: I picture the sharks attack the good cells instead of the bad and actually cause more damage and it scares me very much. Whatever I do, my mind turns healing things into damaging things even during hypnosis. I am desperate because I cannot get help because I seem to resist help. Any session that could help with that? Thanks.