I don't think I want to live anymore. Divorcing an abusive man. Custody battle. He is trying to alienate my child from me. He made lots of money but because I made much more and worked much more the court says he gets half of what I earned and saved. He saved nothing and paid almost no bills despite making 150,000 a year. I tried 4 years before I could get pregnant. He wants to take my baby. All because I left. I was supposed to stay with an emotionally and physically abusive manipulator who doesn't mind slapping me or shoving me but would pretend it was all in my head. I can't do this anymore. I can't. Three therapists at once tell me I can do it but it keeps getting worse. My therapists helped me realize it was abuse but now I've left and it's worse. How is this just? How is this fair? Why should I try to live? I wake up and only hurt. So I don't know which session I need.