Hi, I haven't been diagnosed with a personality disorder or with Asperger's Syndrome, but feel I have a serious social problem that is ruining my life.

I feel inferior to everybody, other women particularly, and feel no joy about anything. I feel emotionally numb and although I feel desperately alone, struggle to open up to people, which adds to the loneliness. I am in an unhappy marriage, have no friends, and have fallen out with all my family. I currently do not work and make excuses to avoid relationships with others and the shame/pain of people realising the truth about me.

I feel I bring people down and make them uncomfortable in my presence. I am also in a cycle of making change then procrasinating and self-sabotaging. On the odd occasion I feel okay about things, instead of being grateful I become a tyrant and punish others for how I have been feeling. In a complicated way what download can you recommend when you are the difficult person? If more than one, how often do you need to listen to them, please?